Monday, July 12, 2004
Taanit Dibor Letter
While Jonathan was living with the Sheingarten's he decided to go on a taanit dibor. He stopped talking. He said it was a fast from talking in order to find more spirituality in his life. He also said he wanted to out-crazy the crazy hasids. Not sure which. Maybe a little of both.
Friday was his day to visit me. He didn't study on Friday. He would take the train from Brooklyn and call me from the train station. This particular Friday I didn't get a phone call. Given that he was suicidal I worried.
He had walked to my house from the train station. He wasn't talking. He couldn't call. Its about one mile. Jonathan walked really slow. When he first came here he seemed like he did it on purpose because he thought he was royalty. Then I thought it had something to do with the depression. Anyway, he was sticking to the taanit dibor, so couldn't call, so he walked the mile from the Long Island Rail Road to my house.
This not talking made me angry. I was furious. I liked when he talked! He sent me a letter. I have posted his letter to me, below.
I think he kept this up for about 10 days. At some point, the Sheingartens called me. They were trying to get him to move out of their house and he wasn't talking. They didn't know if he understood that he had to leave. They didn't understand why he wasn't talking! I don't think they ever heard of a taanit dibor.
They put him on the phone with me and he grunted a few responses. He understood what they were saying. They finally started screaming at him and he broke the taanit dibor. This made him very angry with them!
Taanit Dibor letter
Click on the letter to enlarge.
This is what it says. I am going to make some corrections on the spelling. He mentions a doctor's appointment. I think this is a follow up from the time he fell down the stairs and broke his leg.
Dear Deborah
I won't probably be able to come to you this shabbos because I have some things here to arrange and the time won't allow me to come and also the next week because I have a doctor apointment at 1 o'clock.
I am fine. How are you? Don't be upset about the thing with the talking. Its a very special tool. I am feeling much more peaceful with myself now. Its another world at all. I am less vulnerable and getting "screwed". Also by them. I'm sure it will make things happen much faster for the good with much less suffering.
I am seeing it now. You are existing in my mind. I'm seeing you in all differrnt light now. I wish you could see and feel what I see and feel now. It's something out of this world.
Love you and waiting to see you soon.
Your friend and cousin
Jonathan
Yeshiva Emergency phone numbers.
1-718.......
I asked Jonathan more than once, once he started talking again, to explain this letter. What was he seeing and feeling? He never did explain.
Friday was his day to visit me. He didn't study on Friday. He would take the train from Brooklyn and call me from the train station. This particular Friday I didn't get a phone call. Given that he was suicidal I worried.
He had walked to my house from the train station. He wasn't talking. He couldn't call. Its about one mile. Jonathan walked really slow. When he first came here he seemed like he did it on purpose because he thought he was royalty. Then I thought it had something to do with the depression. Anyway, he was sticking to the taanit dibor, so couldn't call, so he walked the mile from the Long Island Rail Road to my house.
This not talking made me angry. I was furious. I liked when he talked! He sent me a letter. I have posted his letter to me, below.
I think he kept this up for about 10 days. At some point, the Sheingartens called me. They were trying to get him to move out of their house and he wasn't talking. They didn't know if he understood that he had to leave. They didn't understand why he wasn't talking! I don't think they ever heard of a taanit dibor.
They put him on the phone with me and he grunted a few responses. He understood what they were saying. They finally started screaming at him and he broke the taanit dibor. This made him very angry with them!
Taanit Dibor letter
Click on the letter to enlarge.
This is what it says. I am going to make some corrections on the spelling. He mentions a doctor's appointment. I think this is a follow up from the time he fell down the stairs and broke his leg.
Dear Deborah
I won't probably be able to come to you this shabbos because I have some things here to arrange and the time won't allow me to come and also the next week because I have a doctor apointment at 1 o'clock.
I am fine. How are you? Don't be upset about the thing with the talking. Its a very special tool. I am feeling much more peaceful with myself now. Its another world at all. I am less vulnerable and getting "screwed". Also by them. I'm sure it will make things happen much faster for the good with much less suffering.
I am seeing it now. You are existing in my mind. I'm seeing you in all differrnt light now. I wish you could see and feel what I see and feel now. It's something out of this world.
Love you and waiting to see you soon.
Your friend and cousin
Jonathan
Yeshiva Emergency phone numbers.
1-718.......
I asked Jonathan more than once, once he started talking again, to explain this letter. What was he seeing and feeling? He never did explain.
